Tuesday, April 22, 2014
Long time no see...
Hello out there... Wow, I wonder if that echo I just heard was a sign that no one is still out there? I know I have been TERRIBLE at posting on a regular basis for quite sometime now, but I have a really good excuse! I will tell you all about it sometime..right now though I need to post a blog post for a class I am taking. The class is called Intro to Mass Media and the instructor is Bruce Hartley. This is one of my final assignments for his class and it is a paper about blogging. So I thought it only fitting that I turn it in via my blog! So I blew the dust off and cleared away the cobwebs to bring it to you here. So here you go....enjoy!
Lisa
Laxton
Intro
to Mass Media
April
21, 2014
Blogging
for Bucks
Are you a know it all on a particular subject? Do you have a unique hobby? Do you have an
interesting writing style that pulls people in and makes them want to read more? Are you funny or quick witted? If you
answered yes to one or more of these questions, then blogging for a living
might be a career option for you.
The internet has changed all of our lives in one way or
another. For one group of bloggers it
has become their way of making ends meet and paying the bills; it has made them
quite wealthy in fact. You might even go
so far as to say they are now filthy stinkin’ rich! There are many reasons why someone might
start a blog. Maybe you want to express
an opinion, promote or market a product or service, help others or share an
expertise on a specific subject. When
blogging first started in the early 90’s I doubt very many early bloggers
thought it was a platform that held the potential for them to make millions of
dollars from their blog. Today people
know this and it is this knowledge and/or a need to be heard causing more and
more blogs pop up each and every day.
According to Incomediary.com, following is a list of the
top 5 Money Making Blogs, who owns/operates them, their monthly income and what
their primary income source is.
1. The
Huffington Post owned by Arianna Huffington, income of $2,330,000 monthly from
pay per click.
2. Mashable
owned by Pete Cashmore, income of $560,000 monthly from Advertising Banners.
3. Perez
Hilton owned by Mario Lavandeira, income of $450,000 monthly from Advertising
Banners.
4. Techcrunch
owned by Michael Arrington, income of $450,000 monthly from Advertising
Banners.
5. Smashing
Magazine owned by Vitaly Friedman, income of $400,000 monthly from Advertising
Banners. (Dunlop)
The content of these
blogs varies widely proving that a multitude of subjects have the ability to be
successful.
So, now that you have decided you want to be a
millionaire, uhm I mean you want to start a blog, what is your next step? Deciding which format you want to use for
your blog is a good starting point. Using
Blogger, WordPress or your own URL are all potential ideas. There are many other options to choose
from. If you have an existing website
for your company, then just adding a tab for your blog to your website would be
a quick and easy way to go. Do your
research and determine which option is better suited to your goals and skill
set before you make your final decision.
Some formats are more user friendly than others and do not need a huge
amount of technical knowledge.
Once you have nailed down which format you will use it is
important to make a final decision about what the subject or topic of your blog
will be. Are you going to write about
your family home life and share the details with the world in a funny or satirical
way? Does your family face a challenge
on a daily basis like reactive associative disorder (RAD) or autism that you
could help educate other families about?
Do you have something you are passionate about? Maybe photography, religion, cooking, sports,
politics, wildlife, scrapbooking or another hobby could be a potential subject
for your blog. It could be helpful for
you to research existing blogs prior to making your final decision. If you find lots of blogs already existing
about your potential subject, then you might want to go with another idea. This research will also help you determine
what you do or don't like about what other bloggers are doing.
Now that you have determined your subject material, it is
time to get started. Designing your blog
and crafting your writing style to match your chosen topic are very important
steps. Start out with a solid simple
design that flows well. You can worry
about adding cool add-ons and widgets later.
Your design will be the first thing your readers notice and could decide
if they read anything you type at all. If
you are writing tech reviews on cutting edge new technology your visual design
needs to be sleek and techie. The use of
Crayola fonts and fuzzy bears on your background would totally conflict with
your subject. On the same note, your
writing style needs to match also. You
need to be able to speak on the same level as the audience you are trying to
reach.
With your initial design layout in place, it is time to
posting to your blog and building your fan base. For the non-techie side of this a great place
to start is social media sites. Using
Twitter to post links to your blog when you make new posts and at other times
offer snippets of information or tips and then link back to your blog. Facebook and Google + are also great places
to start promoting your blog. Reddit and
Linked In are two more of the many remaining options you can utilize. One of the keys to this type of promotion is consistency. It is critical for you to post on a consistent
regular basis in order for people to take note and remember you. According to Carol Tice, “The more often your site is updated, the more often
search-engines come back to see what's new. That helps drive up your rankings
in search -- and send more readers to your blog.” (Tice)
Once you are all set with your social media cross
promotion, it is time to start working on your search engine optimization (SEO)
and your key words. SEO and keywords and used to route traffic to your blog when someone searches for something that
is relevant to what your blog is about.
If you focus on photography, it is important that you think of every
possible tag word or key word that might be tied back to your subject. Photography could result in the following
tags: photo, photographer, photography,
photog, pictures, picture, camera, cameras, dslr, and digital camera. These are just a few of the possible words
that could be used. If you get more
specific and the subject is newborn photography, then there are even more words
that could be added.
Ok, your blog is up and running and you have been typing
your fingers to the bone bouncing from one social media site to another
commenting, tweeting and getting your name out there. You have poured your blood, sweat and tears
into building this and now you want to know “Where is the dough?” How do you start seeing an income for all
your efforts? Most bloggers first turn
to AdSense as their initial ad revenue source.
AdSense is an advertising
placement service by Google. The program is designed for website publishers who
want to display targeted text, video or image advertisements on website pages
and earn money when site visitors view or click the ads. Another popular revenue stream is the Amazon
and other affiliate programs. An affiliate program is a marketing program where you can receive
commission for helping a parent company (such as HostGator) generate sales. Sponsorships and E-book are yet two more
ideas that could be utilized to generate income. Personal appearances and speaking fees
are additional opportunities that could open up for well-known bloggers. Kelly Anderson, states
“If your blog really becomes popular,
you might be able to expand your income opportunities beyond the web and into
the real world.” (Anderson)
Starting a blog really isn't rocket science and anyone
can do it. All it takes is an idea and a
commitment to making it happen. Doing
this research might be the spur I need to get back to posting on at least one
of my blogs on a regular basis. Maybe I
will even try to add some advertising banners or AdSense and see if I can make
a little extra cash somewhere down the line!
Works
Citied
Anderson, Kelly. Mintlife.com. 23 05 2013.
Story. 22 04 2014.
Dunlop, Michael. Incomediary.com. n.d. Web
Story. 22 04 2014.
Tice, Carol. Business.tutsplus.com. 31 01 2013.
Article. 22 04 2014.
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Balancing Act
In an effort to get back into the swing of blogging occasionally, I have decided to start sharing some of class assignments and my feelings about my current life as a non-traditional student. As some of you may know and some may not know, I recently decided to go back to college so my life is totally different now.
The first one I am going to share was written as a "reflection" on our first week of classes for my Freshman Seminar Class last semester. Now remember, I haven't written much since high school - actually I didn't write much in high school now that I think about it! So be kind! lol
The first one I am going to share was written as a "reflection" on our first week of classes for my Freshman Seminar Class last semester. Now remember, I haven't written much since high school - actually I didn't write much in high school now that I think about it! So be kind! lol
Balancing
Act
All
the years I spent in dance and gymnastics did little to help me prepare for the
balancing act that going back to school has made of my life. I feel like a Las Vegas performer spinning multiple
plates on rods; trying desperately to keep all of them spinning and not
crashing to the ground creating a shower of shrapnel in all directions.
Life
as a non-traditional student creates a myriad of opportunities for personal
growth. Like learning to manage your
time to fit working full time keeping up with family member’s schedules, being
a wife/mother/housekeeper, finding time to do homework and the list goes on. I feel that as the semester progresses, my
sleep schedule will be what suffers most.
I
know that by returning to school at this point in my life my college experience
will be totally different than it would have been if I had finished when I
started the first time around. I will
not be pledging a sorority, nor will I be trying out for the pom squad. Those are aspects of college that I will
never participate in and are forever lost chances. On the other hand, my grades will be much better
than they would have been back then.
While I can’t say I would have gone through my entire college career
being happy with solid C’s; I can say it
will be stretch for me now to be happy with any B’s at all. My goal is straight A’s, with little gold
stars of course! I know what a challenge
that would be even if I was a full time student with none of the other
distractions I listed previously, but that is my goal none the less.
The
first week of classes has proven that balancing my work schedule with my class
schedule will not always be easy. Having
to miss a class due to a work obligation is a huge source of stress for me. I have been advised to remain strong and not
resort to Oreos at midnight as a coping mechanism. Even when I thought I was on top of my game
and smiling inside at my innate ability (after a WHOLE week) to stay current on
my assignments and homework, I noticed that I appeared to have missed turning
in my very first paper on time. After a
mild panic attack and a minor bout of self-rebuking followed by a please
forgive me email to my professor, I was relieved to learn that I had not missed
the deadline after all. Whew! But that little episode reminded me that no
matter how sure I am of the facts I think I know; double (and sometimes triple)
checking the details never hurts!
I
look forward to taking on the challenge that I have issued to myself and I am
ready to prove that I can do it. While
it won’t be easy, it can be done. There
are many of the traditional aspects of college that I may miss out on, but I
intend to make the most of my time as a student at ECU. There is a saying that comes to mind I think
fits this situation. A rubber band doesn't fully realize its true potential and value until it is stretched.
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Perfume tray DIY Project...
Today I am going to share another of my DIY projects with you. While I didn't just do this one (I actually did it awhile back - but I won't tell if you don't!), I did think it was something some of you might be interested in. So....here it is!
This project started because I wanted something I could put my perfume bottles on that wasn't the same ol' vanity tray that you see every where. I scoured the stores looking for something affordable that would serve this purpose. My search lead me to this lil' gem of a mirror at Hobby Lobby. It wasn't to small, it wasn't to large...it was (you know what I am going to say don't you?) just right!
Now I probably could have just sat this mirror straight on the dresser (after removing the hanging hardware) and been done with it. But that wasn't what I had in mind and when you have something in mind you just gotta go with it! Since my mind was in charge, it had me pick up some handy wood feet while I was at Hobby Lobby. I love it when my mind plans ahead and saves me a trip back to the store! Now, remember earlier when I said that I did this project a while back? Well - that is the reason I don't have any before pictures of the bare wood feet. So this picture of them after a coat of black spray paint and a dab of hot glue have been added, will have to do. As I have said before, you don't really need to see the glue gun do you?
The feet probably could used an additional coat or two of paint, but I am sure no one will notice.
I used 4 feet to ensure the tray was stable and wouldn't tip once the bottles are in place.
Here is the finished project...complete with my favorite perfumes. Yes, I know one of the bottles is empty, but Roger bought it for me in Paris. (No, not Paris, TX.) And I LOVED it! I have looked and looked but haven't found it anywhere else yet. I guess another trip to Paris, France is in order! Awww, darn!
Hope you like it!
Labels:
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Saturday, January 21, 2012
Cricut tryout...
So tonight I decided I would finally play with the Cricut cutter I got. I was just messing around, so I got some of my 12x12 scrapbook paper and picked a image from one of the design cartridges. It is actually pretty simple to use and I can think of lots of crafty ways to use it other than cut outs for paper scrapbooking, which I don't do much anymore!
I picked a swirly flourish and told it to fit to page. It sized it and then began cutting it out. This picture is after I started removing it from the adhesive cutting mat.
Being one to never waste paper...I flipped it over and tried cutting out letters. These could be used with modge podge, or add adhesive with the xyron and it is a label. The paper could be used a stencil to spray paint a design on almost anything. If you get the vinyl, you can cut images or phrases out for wall decals or much much more! I also saw that it will cut out fabric also.. Who knows what I will cut out next! Not to mention I have one that works on gum paste, fondant and frosting sheets! Maybe some day I will get around to getting one of those so I can try it out!
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
More DIY...
$5 used lamp + left over bead fringe + hot glue gun = a cool little revamped accessory! This is one of a few DIY project posts coming your way soon!!!
This is the lamp shade from the $5 lamp before the DIY addition..
The left over piece of beaded fringe from a previous project.
The finished DIY lamp accessory! I love it! I didn't really figure you needed to see a picture of the hot glue gun!
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Monday, November 21, 2011
The wait is finally over...
What is the longest you have every waited for something? 20 mins? 1 hour? 1 week? 1 year? 1 decade? 2 decades? 1 quarter of a century? Wow...that last one actually sounds dramatic! Even in print... What would be worth waiting that long for? Your college graduation? Your first set of china? Your one true love? Some of us get lucky and find our one true early in life - like at age 14. Then at 18 we marry them and the next thing you know, it has been 25 years that you have been married to your one true love. This December 27th - I will have been married to mine that long. But that isn't truly what this post is about...
Since I didn't go to college, let's go back and look at that 2nd item on the list...you know the one about china. Now let me tell you a little story...since you already know a little about my marriage from the first part of this post, I will keep this part brief. Girl meets boy, girl dates boy, girl marries boy...that was brief huh? lol Now fast forward a bit. Not a lot..just a little. Maybe a year or so. Girl's mother-in-law informs her that she gets to pick between the two sets of china that she has. She purchased 2 sets years ago so both of her sons would one day have a set. Although I married her youngest son, we were married first so, I get to pick which set I wanted. One set was more contemporary with small flowers and more pastel colors. The other was more traditional with lacy edges and a flower pattern in steel grey blue color. For me there really was only one choice. I picked the later of the two sets. What I didn't know at the time was that the set I picked also came with a complete set of enamel pots and pans! And a fondue set! Bonus!!!
Now comes well, life. We moved from Norman, OK to Phoenix, AZ then back to Dallas, TX and a few other stops along the way before finally landing in Allen, TX for 13 years. At all of those locations we never ended up having a dinning room large enough to have room for a china hutch. So during all these years my china continued to reside with my mother-in-law. Fast forward to well..2011.
After another move from Allen, TX back to our home town of Ada, OK and a short stint in a rent house, we finally found a house we fell in love with and purchased. The time had come...I finally had a dining room large enough for a china hutch. But I didn't have a china hutch! I noticed I friend of mine was selling a beautiful extremely large dining room table! It was large enough that my entire family would fit at it. Even once they each find their own true love. The only down side was that she did not have a china hutch to match. So I did some rapid research and actually located the china hutch that matched it! I now have both pieces and they look awesome.
Now the question comes, how to you get an entire set of china from Phoenix, AZ to Ada, OK without any of them getting broken? You count on a wonderful mother and father-in-law...and they deliver them to you just in time to use them for Thanksgiving! Some girls have everything! Well, at least I do...
Since I didn't go to college, let's go back and look at that 2nd item on the list...you know the one about china. Now let me tell you a little story...since you already know a little about my marriage from the first part of this post, I will keep this part brief. Girl meets boy, girl dates boy, girl marries boy...that was brief huh? lol Now fast forward a bit. Not a lot..just a little. Maybe a year or so. Girl's mother-in-law informs her that she gets to pick between the two sets of china that she has. She purchased 2 sets years ago so both of her sons would one day have a set. Although I married her youngest son, we were married first so, I get to pick which set I wanted. One set was more contemporary with small flowers and more pastel colors. The other was more traditional with lacy edges and a flower pattern in steel grey blue color. For me there really was only one choice. I picked the later of the two sets. What I didn't know at the time was that the set I picked also came with a complete set of enamel pots and pans! And a fondue set! Bonus!!!
Now comes well, life. We moved from Norman, OK to Phoenix, AZ then back to Dallas, TX and a few other stops along the way before finally landing in Allen, TX for 13 years. At all of those locations we never ended up having a dinning room large enough to have room for a china hutch. So during all these years my china continued to reside with my mother-in-law. Fast forward to well..2011.
After another move from Allen, TX back to our home town of Ada, OK and a short stint in a rent house, we finally found a house we fell in love with and purchased. The time had come...I finally had a dining room large enough for a china hutch. But I didn't have a china hutch! I noticed I friend of mine was selling a beautiful extremely large dining room table! It was large enough that my entire family would fit at it. Even once they each find their own true love. The only down side was that she did not have a china hutch to match. So I did some rapid research and actually located the china hutch that matched it! I now have both pieces and they look awesome.
Now the question comes, how to you get an entire set of china from Phoenix, AZ to Ada, OK without any of them getting broken? You count on a wonderful mother and father-in-law...and they deliver them to you just in time to use them for Thanksgiving! Some girls have everything! Well, at least I do...
Unpacking my early Christmas....12 place settings. :)
Aunt Donna had to much fun thinking of me unpacking these with all this shredded paper! lol
I also have lots and lots of extra pieces...2 sets of salt and pepper and the candle stick holders.
The pattern...
2 gravy boats!
A fondue and a crystal piece that matches some I already had.
Love this piece!
Tea/coffee pitcher and the sugar and creamer.
All unpacked and put away...
And the aftermath...
And the end result is one happy momma. Stay tuned for more pictures from this years Thanksgiving dinner.... Creating new family traditions in our new home is worth waiting for....even 25 years.
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Friday, November 18, 2011
***WARNING*** You might gain weight by reading this post...
I have a confession to make and I know this is going to surprise some of you. This is something I need to say...I like to bake!
I think my family will be the ones most surprised by this disclosure. I am sure they will be trying to find out why I don't do it more often if I like to do? I guess I really don't have a reason...just same one that get used for everything. No time! Like with everything I do...I have a tendency to get carried away. I like to take things that one more step and some would say (although not to my face!) that one step is one step to many. Don't believe me?
I think my family will be the ones most surprised by this disclosure. I am sure they will be trying to find out why I don't do it more often if I like to do? I guess I really don't have a reason...just same one that get used for everything. No time! Like with everything I do...I have a tendency to get carried away. I like to take things that one more step and some would say (although not to my face!) that one step is one step to many. Don't believe me?
I like to set the table with elevations..I don't like a flat table. Levels make it more party like to me!
I love to make pretty pies...not just ones that taste good! And I make them all from scratch.
This one has "lots" of little tiny hand formed leaves placed around the edge of the crust! And I pick out as many unbroken pecans as I can to layer on the top. I like them unbroken! :)
Now that being said...I found a new toy that I can't wait to play with. It is the Cricut Cake! Wait..let me try that again...It is the Cricut Cake!!! You guys must not be listening...I said...IT IS THE CRICUT CAKE!!!!! There really should be more applause and maybe a standing ovation here people!
Apparently you don't know what one is so I will provide the link and let you self educate!

Now that you fully comprehend the awesomeness that is the Cricut Cake...I am sure you are all feeling the appropriate about of reverence now! And that you all share my eager anticipation for the arrival of mine! I knew I should have sprung for the rush shipping...dang it dang it dang it!!!!
So, stay tuned for more from me and Kylie; as I can't wait to share what I am sure will be pure creative holiday goody awesomeness over the next few weeks!
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Follow up on planet...
Kylie really liked her planet when we finished it. Although I still think it looks a bit more like a spaceship! :)
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Out of this world school project...
Why is it that all school projects are forgotten until the very last minute? You have to get really creative at 8:30pm in Ada, OK to come up with the supplies you need if you don't have them in your craft stash already! ( I know..you guys thought I had EVERYTHING in my craft stash didn't you!) So...what do you get when you mix a nerf ball, 6 toothpicks, a paper plate and some spray paint? Pause for dramatic effect.......
What do you mean you don't know?!?!?!? Saturn of course!!! Kylie's class is making the solar system and her planet is Saturn. As you all know, I am a expert on Saturn and what it looks like. NOT!!! So I went by what Kylie said and we got it as close as we could with what we had.
We couldn't find a smooth nerf ball so Saturn has a really strange topography!
This picture is for my friend Deann...I don't think she got to get her hands dirty with a craft project today!
Oh! I almost forgot the best part...we added glow in the dark spray paint! That got me the way cool mom of the day award with my daughter and that is worth a few paint specks on my fingers any time! :)
What do you mean you don't know?!?!?!? Saturn of course!!! Kylie's class is making the solar system and her planet is Saturn. As you all know, I am a expert on Saturn and what it looks like. NOT!!! So I went by what Kylie said and we got it as close as we could with what we had.
Hot glue to hold Saturn's "rings" in place takes way to long to dry!
We couldn't find a smooth nerf ball so Saturn has a really strange topography!
Saturn is more than a tad over exposed from the flash in this one!
This picture is for my friend Deann...I don't think she got to get her hands dirty with a craft project today!
Oh! I almost forgot the best part...we added glow in the dark spray paint! That got me the way cool mom of the day award with my daughter and that is worth a few paint specks on my fingers any time! :)
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Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Dust bunnies and cobwebs....
Wow...would you look at the cobwebs in here! Who is supposed to be keeping this place up? Me? Are you sure? I am pretty sure I told someone else to do it! Oh well, if you want something done right...
I can't believe it has been as long as it has since I posted regularly. Life seems to have been such a whirl wind this last year and a half or so. I don't know if I will go back and "relive" the whirl wind in detail here, but I do want to try and MAKE more time for "me" stuff.
Blogging, scrapping and who knows...my kids might even let me take a new picture of them every now and then since they are getting a little older. I am not going to start my family update tonight...but I promise to be back soon to do that.
In the mean time, for your blog reading entertainment...I think it would be fun to revisit some of my old posts on occasion. So I will start with one of those tonight!
I thought I would find a old post from a previous November...but I settled on one that talks about a serious subject for all of us who are no longer 18 years old!
Enjoy...Kicking and Screaming...
I can't believe it has been as long as it has since I posted regularly. Life seems to have been such a whirl wind this last year and a half or so. I don't know if I will go back and "relive" the whirl wind in detail here, but I do want to try and MAKE more time for "me" stuff.
Blogging, scrapping and who knows...my kids might even let me take a new picture of them every now and then since they are getting a little older. I am not going to start my family update tonight...but I promise to be back soon to do that.
In the mean time, for your blog reading entertainment...I think it would be fun to revisit some of my old posts on occasion. So I will start with one of those tonight!
I thought I would find a old post from a previous November...but I settled on one that talks about a serious subject for all of us who are no longer 18 years old!
Enjoy...Kicking and Screaming...
Friday, July 9, 2010
Where oh where could they be???
Could someone PULEEEEZZZZE tell me where 2 - yes I said 2 - TWO!!!! of our cordless phones have totally disappeared to?!?!?!?!?!?!? I have looked everywhere I can think to look. I know they were here, so they weren't lost in the move - can't blame that. I have checked all the kids rooms, in the furniture, checked our room, under the beds, in drawers, in the garage...EVERYWHERE!!!!!! WHERE THE HECK COULD THEY BE???? If they show up at your house could you please send them home!!!!!!!! Thank You!
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Life in Limbo
Warning - not really a bleeding heart post, but could be considered a whining heart post!
When I was younger I used to say that I wanted to be like Peter-Pan (Peter-Pan Ann - since I am not a guy)and never grow up! Now that I am older, I realize that I didn't really mean it! My birthday is rapidly approaching and I will be(mumble mumble) years old. In my life I have been happily married for twenty-three years, have 4 great kids, have had good success in my work life (considering I don't have my degree - which was a huge mistake on my part! Kids!!!! Go to college - get your degree - whether you are encouraged too or not - just do it!!!! You won't go back and do it later, so don't fool yourself!!!!)...so why do I feel like there is something missing? I don't mean that the decisions I made were wrong. Or that I regret any of them...that isn't it at all. I love my family! I wouldn't change that part of my life. It is hard to explain... I have so many things that I enjoy and keeping my modesty intact - I am at least pretty good at...but nothing that I feel defines me outside of my family. I guess I don't feel like I have found my "calling" in life. What is it I am supposed to be? Yes, a wife, yes, a mother...but does it make me a bad wife and mother if I feel like there is supposed to be something else?
Why is it that there isn't anything else yet? Am I too flaky to make a decision about what to commit too? Am I too lazy to put the work/time into what it takes to make this type of commitment? Will I ever find the answers to these questions?
I guess for now the only thing I can say is.. "Please be patient - God isn't finished with me yet.
When I was younger I used to say that I wanted to be like Peter-Pan (Peter-Pan Ann - since I am not a guy)and never grow up! Now that I am older, I realize that I didn't really mean it! My birthday is rapidly approaching and I will be(mumble mumble) years old. In my life I have been happily married for twenty-three years, have 4 great kids, have had good success in my work life (considering I don't have my degree - which was a huge mistake on my part! Kids!!!! Go to college - get your degree - whether you are encouraged too or not - just do it!!!! You won't go back and do it later, so don't fool yourself!!!!)...so why do I feel like there is something missing? I don't mean that the decisions I made were wrong. Or that I regret any of them...that isn't it at all. I love my family! I wouldn't change that part of my life. It is hard to explain... I have so many things that I enjoy and keeping my modesty intact - I am at least pretty good at...but nothing that I feel defines me outside of my family. I guess I don't feel like I have found my "calling" in life. What is it I am supposed to be? Yes, a wife, yes, a mother...but does it make me a bad wife and mother if I feel like there is supposed to be something else?
Why is it that there isn't anything else yet? Am I too flaky to make a decision about what to commit too? Am I too lazy to put the work/time into what it takes to make this type of commitment? Will I ever find the answers to these questions?
I guess for now the only thing I can say is.. "Please be patient - God isn't finished with me yet.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Kicking and screaming...
You know what they saying about how your body goes down hill after 40? About how your eye sight starts to fade, your saddle bags are saggier, your love handles are handier and most of your "assets" are starting to get closer to your knees!
Well for the sake of not totally embarrassing myself, we are going to limit this post (and all future posts for that matter!)to the first part of my list - my eye sight. Now since we have excluded all of my other ahem - "assets" (or liabilities as they are now!!!!!) my eye sight is something that I have held great pride in as I aged. When I have had my eyes checked previously I have always been able to read the very smallest lines and came away with at the very worst "almost" 20/20 vision. Woo hoo - go me!
Recently I have been noticing a few problems. When reviewing some of my photo sessions I have noticed occassions where a few of the pictures are focused on something other than the main subject. That is something I should have caught... Also, when using the double monitor at work I noticed I was having a hard time focusing on the smaller monitor and being able to read the words.
This was quite distressing to me, so I blamed a lot of it on my allergies which have been HORRIBLE since we moved back. The only thing reacting to them is my eyes. They burn, water and are extremely red most of the time lately. I have tried several different OTC medications/drops and even went to the doctor about it. He said I am not alone in my misery and gave me a prescription for eye drops.
That being said - I did decide it would be best if I went ahead and had my eyes checked to sure. I made an appointment with my cousin who is an eye doctor here in Ada and waited.
Once in the office, his assistant had me try to read the chart. "Read the smallest line you can." I tried as hard as I could but I could not read the bottom line...it was fuzzy. I was a complete failure! I could read the second to the bottom line but that was not good enough for me! I want to read the bottom one dang it! It seemed no matter how hard I tried it wasn't going to happen. I felt like I couldn't get my eyes to cooperate and focus - TRAITORS! I kept blinking and blinking, but to no avail!
So I sat there in the chair with my failure sitting there with me and weighing heavy on me. Jeff came in and stuck that big ol' contraption in front of my eyes and began "Is this better or this? One or two? Three or four? Here or here?" I pouted and answered his questions begrudingly knowing in my heart I was getting ready to hear those dreaded words - "Well, you do need glasses." I DO NOT want GLASSES!!!!!!!
You have to understand that I have a history with glasses. When I was (lots) younger I had to have glasses...I don't know who helped me pick out my glasses but I think it was the same person who helped that hispanic guy on the last season of American Idol pick out his. I don't think I ever had a pair that was flattering...at least not in the pictures my mom has. And to add to that I had a really bad habit of scrunching my nose up and "walking" my glasses up with my cheeks to push them up instead of using my finger. It was a habit my mother hated. So all I heard was "stop that...push your glasses up right!" I am pretty sure there was beatings and physical abuse involved! If you saw the pictures you would KNOW it was abusive to make a young girl walk around in public looking like that! And don't get me started on the Carol Brady hair cut on a 10 year old!
So needless to say I eventually stopped wearing them all together. Mom took me to get contacts when I was in 6th grade. I have astigmatism (impressed that I knew how to spell that aren't ya! Go look it up, it's right!) - and they did not make soft contacts to correct that and I went home with hard contacts. I was extremely dilagent about doing exactly as I was told. It was great having them...not only did it mean I didn't have to wear those gawd awful glasses anymore but they were also a great excuse to "have" to leave class and go "fix" my contact in the bathroom. BONUS!!! But alas, my new adventure was short lived. I woke up one morning with my eyes totally swollen shut! I tried as hard as I could and could not open them. Mom was sure I had fallen asleep with my contacts in..but they were in their case. I had never wanted to go to school so bad in all my life...I thought it would be so cool to have to be lead from one class to the next since I couldn't see. Mom said no and made me stay home. See! I told you I was mistreated! What a killjoy!
So I spent the next ????? years of my life not needing anything according to the Dr.s I saw and had no problems with my vision. Until now...
Jeff said that my problem was not with my actual ability to see - but with my ability to focus instead. Of course he had to add - that it was an ability that we lose as we get (you guessed it!) OLDER! So before he could say anything at all about glasses, I asked him if it could be corrected with contacts - because giving me glasses would be pointless since I probably won't wear them right. (I spared him the LONG story you have been subjected to here!) So he ordered me some trial contacts..I picked them up late this afternoon. I didn't have any problems putting them in and I plan to work my way into wearing them all day. My vision right now isn't great with them in...they take some getting use to and they are getting better as the evening goes on. Hopefully they will work and my focusing issue will be resolved!
So since that is all taken care of - I am going to refocus on improving my other "assets". If that doesn't work, I will have to take the contacts back out!!!
Well for the sake of not totally embarrassing myself, we are going to limit this post (and all future posts for that matter!)to the first part of my list - my eye sight. Now since we have excluded all of my other ahem - "assets" (or liabilities as they are now!!!!!) my eye sight is something that I have held great pride in as I aged. When I have had my eyes checked previously I have always been able to read the very smallest lines and came away with at the very worst "almost" 20/20 vision. Woo hoo - go me!
Recently I have been noticing a few problems. When reviewing some of my photo sessions I have noticed occassions where a few of the pictures are focused on something other than the main subject. That is something I should have caught... Also, when using the double monitor at work I noticed I was having a hard time focusing on the smaller monitor and being able to read the words.
This was quite distressing to me, so I blamed a lot of it on my allergies which have been HORRIBLE since we moved back. The only thing reacting to them is my eyes. They burn, water and are extremely red most of the time lately. I have tried several different OTC medications/drops and even went to the doctor about it. He said I am not alone in my misery and gave me a prescription for eye drops.
That being said - I did decide it would be best if I went ahead and had my eyes checked to sure. I made an appointment with my cousin who is an eye doctor here in Ada and waited.
Once in the office, his assistant had me try to read the chart. "Read the smallest line you can." I tried as hard as I could but I could not read the bottom line...it was fuzzy. I was a complete failure! I could read the second to the bottom line but that was not good enough for me! I want to read the bottom one dang it! It seemed no matter how hard I tried it wasn't going to happen. I felt like I couldn't get my eyes to cooperate and focus - TRAITORS! I kept blinking and blinking, but to no avail!
So I sat there in the chair with my failure sitting there with me and weighing heavy on me. Jeff came in and stuck that big ol' contraption in front of my eyes and began "Is this better or this? One or two? Three or four? Here or here?" I pouted and answered his questions begrudingly knowing in my heart I was getting ready to hear those dreaded words - "Well, you do need glasses." I DO NOT want GLASSES!!!!!!!
You have to understand that I have a history with glasses. When I was (lots) younger I had to have glasses...I don't know who helped me pick out my glasses but I think it was the same person who helped that hispanic guy on the last season of American Idol pick out his. I don't think I ever had a pair that was flattering...at least not in the pictures my mom has. And to add to that I had a really bad habit of scrunching my nose up and "walking" my glasses up with my cheeks to push them up instead of using my finger. It was a habit my mother hated. So all I heard was "stop that...push your glasses up right!" I am pretty sure there was beatings and physical abuse involved! If you saw the pictures you would KNOW it was abusive to make a young girl walk around in public looking like that! And don't get me started on the Carol Brady hair cut on a 10 year old!
So needless to say I eventually stopped wearing them all together. Mom took me to get contacts when I was in 6th grade. I have astigmatism (impressed that I knew how to spell that aren't ya! Go look it up, it's right!) - and they did not make soft contacts to correct that and I went home with hard contacts. I was extremely dilagent about doing exactly as I was told. It was great having them...not only did it mean I didn't have to wear those gawd awful glasses anymore but they were also a great excuse to "have" to leave class and go "fix" my contact in the bathroom. BONUS!!! But alas, my new adventure was short lived. I woke up one morning with my eyes totally swollen shut! I tried as hard as I could and could not open them. Mom was sure I had fallen asleep with my contacts in..but they were in their case. I had never wanted to go to school so bad in all my life...I thought it would be so cool to have to be lead from one class to the next since I couldn't see. Mom said no and made me stay home. See! I told you I was mistreated! What a killjoy!
So I spent the next ????? years of my life not needing anything according to the Dr.s I saw and had no problems with my vision. Until now...
Jeff said that my problem was not with my actual ability to see - but with my ability to focus instead. Of course he had to add - that it was an ability that we lose as we get (you guessed it!) OLDER! So before he could say anything at all about glasses, I asked him if it could be corrected with contacts - because giving me glasses would be pointless since I probably won't wear them right. (I spared him the LONG story you have been subjected to here!) So he ordered me some trial contacts..I picked them up late this afternoon. I didn't have any problems putting them in and I plan to work my way into wearing them all day. My vision right now isn't great with them in...they take some getting use to and they are getting better as the evening goes on. Hopefully they will work and my focusing issue will be resolved!
So since that is all taken care of - I am going to refocus on improving my other "assets". If that doesn't work, I will have to take the contacts back out!!!
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Neglected and ignored but not forgotten....
I have been a bbbbaaaaadddddd blogger of late. Several months actually... But as some of you know, I have had a really good excuse. Really...I have! And if you don't agree, well I don't want to hear it! That's my story and I am stickin' too it!
I guess I will do a really quick (or not so quick) update of some of what has been happening in our part of the Laxton world. I guess it would start with our spur of the moment (really it was!) decision to move back to Ada. This was briefly touched on in a previous albeit a tad bit sappy post.
The boys all decided they wanted to go ahead and move with Roger. Kylie, Lila, Adri and myself - were going to stay behind to get the house ready to sell, let Kylie finish school in Allen and Lila have the baby in Dallas. In the meantime, I thought I would apply for a few jobs in anticipation of possibly going back to work. I figured it would take me a while to find something here. Roger and the boys came on up here and Mom almost immediately found us a great little house with 4 bedrooms. We decided to rent it and the guys would all live there until us girls were ready to join them and then Roger and I would find another house for us and Chris and Lila would stay in this house. I am not even sure if this plan was in place more than a week! I got a call from the Chickasaw Nation about a position I had applied for about coming in for an interview. They called on Monday - I interviewed on Tuesday - took/passed my drug test (studied all night long for that one!) on Wednesday - withdrew Kylie from Allen schools on Thursday - packed me and Kylie on Friday (Lila and Adri were already in Ada with Chris) and we hit the road to Ada for me to start working on Monday! Wait...that was NOT in my plan.
Even as nice as the 4 bedroom house was to find and as great as it was working for the guys, it was not large enough for eight people to live in. Not even for the short time while we looked for another larger rent house for us. Soooo, Roger dropped me and Kylie off at Mom's and went home! Mom and Dad were not sure what to think about him bringing me back home to them after 23+ years! Dad was mostly distressed by the fact that they were sure I didn't have "that" many clothes when I left! It was kind of like dating again...I would leave work, go to mom's to change out of my suit, go to Roger's to have dinner - then Kylie and I would head back to Mom's for the night. Quite strange...but we didn't plan on it lasting long. Little did we know that the rental properties in Ada are mostly small and uhm...how to say this delicately...are a little lacking? And that is an understatement! Anything larger than 3 bedroom 1 bath is harder than heck to find! But God finally took pity on us and did at least provide a nice house for us...with a pool even! The down side is that it is only a 3 bedroom.
We discussed our options on how to make that work. The boys were not exactly open to the idea of sharing a room after 13 plus years of having their own. Luckily the house had a small room on the back that I guess you could call a sun room....maybe? It has a wetbar and is serving as Kylie's room. She loves having the wetbar in her room...she made Roger go get her sparkling grape and apple juice to put in "her" wine rack. And we had to immediately put "her" fancy glasses in the glasses holder. We got her new pre-teen bedding in bright pink, turquoise, purple and lime green - complete with 3 bright colored rugs. (Thank you to Joei and Trisha for helping talk her out of the trend trap of Hanna Montana bedding!!!) I still need to get some curtains for her, but it looks really cute!
The house is considerably smaller than the one we had in Texas, but the whole family is having a blast with the pool. Roger and I got some really pretty flowers and some floats and the pool area is ready for a party now! I actually got out in the pool and enjoyed it and a float for the first time today....maybe just a bit too long without sunscreen as I am now sporting my first sunburn in years! Don't worry...it is a mild one and should be fine tomorrow - so rest easy and don't worry about me. I am fine! But thank you all for your concern! <3
Let's see, what else has happened....Not much - but here is a brief list:
The boys ran track
Had Adri's 1st Bday party
Went to Cole's Bday party
Had Easter at Mamaw's
Cameron and Kindelle went to the Ada prom
Josh and Erin went to the Allen prom
Hired someone to fix up the Allen house to sell it
Attended Trenton's birthday party
Lila had the baby early (many other posts to come on this one I am sure!) - Alexis Grace
We listed the house for sale
Nana came to town to help with the baby and to attend graduation
Had Nana and Adri with us for several days because Adri got sick and couldn't be with the baby
Josh graduated from highschool
Roger broke his year 2 goal for projects won in month 2
I think that pretty much catches you up....add to that working fulltime and spending almost all of my free time unpacking and sorting through boxes and you know exactly what I have been up to! Any questions?
I won't even begin to try and list what I still have left to do...there are sharp objects in the house so it might not be wise for me to think too much about it!!!!
Monday, March 8, 2010
The time has come...
Well, the girls and I made it to Oklahoma tonight. We all join the guys on this new adventure tomorrow. Adri is starting it with a slight fever. Might be those 3 teeth coming in on the top. I have several things to post, but tonight...I am going to sleep. I will post lots more later! It has been awhile since I set my alarm for 5:45am! G'night world..see you bright and early tomorrow.
Saturday, March 6, 2010
New page...new chapter in life
Well...as some of you know things are really changing for the Laxton Family. It is 3 am and I can't sleep so I thought I would type a short post and share a new page with you all. We are in the process of moving back to Ada. And it is a process that is happening much faster than I expected it to. Roger and the boys are already there...in a small rent house we found that Chris and Lila will stay in once we find a house large enough for us. I planned to let Kylie finish the year here and sell the house then join them.
I figured who knows how long it will take me to find work so I will apply for a few and see what happens. Well, long story short..I start in the HR Dept of the Commerce Division of the Chickasaw Nation on Monday! I guess you can say my head is really spinning right now...
Here is my most recent completion on trying to get my 2009 Project 365 pages done. Then I still have the rest of the year to finish!
Some of you may have seen it on facebook...I just never got around to posting it here.Tuesday, February 23, 2010
My mind is whirling...fear and excitement blurs together
Boy do things change fast! Our whole world is changing now and all I can do is pray it is for the best and that it is His plan for us. I never really thought we would move back to Ada. Well, maybe some day to retire or something. But not really even then. I can't really seem to decipher all of my emotions about this... There are lots of pros and there are lots of cons. Since the last time I live there was right after I graduated...I feel a lot like that same scared lost teenager. Looking for the approval of people from whom I did not "need" it. Trying to fit in and at the same time wanting to just exist and not be noticed too much. To be noticed carried the risk of being hurt; to not be noticed carried the risk of being alone. Teenagers can be so cruel...and even all these years later some of the memories can still be painful. Which bothers me even more! I like to think I am not that same person. I am older, I am successful, I am strong...so why am I so emotional about it? I guess...I am human and change of this magnitude of any kind is scary. (It makes me wonder if I owe anyone out there an apology for the way I treated them in high school? Just in case...I am so sorry if I was ever unkind or thoughtless to any of you!)
It is scary to leave this place which on so many levels has become comfortable and familiar. Like your favorite pair of house shoes. Yet this town does not meet all of our needs..some of them it never has. And some things it no longer does. We leave behind, family and friends both old and new. And that makes me sad. Ada is a totally different place..I am a totally different person. Will my kids be happy there, are we making the right decision? Heaven only knows... I pray I can find my place there...a way to contribute and be happy and to once again call it home. We will work like it depends on us and pray like it doesn't!
(This is in no way a normal post for me...sorry for the depth. Guess I just needed to get it off my chest.) ;`D
It is scary to leave this place which on so many levels has become comfortable and familiar. Like your favorite pair of house shoes. Yet this town does not meet all of our needs..some of them it never has. And some things it no longer does. We leave behind, family and friends both old and new. And that makes me sad. Ada is a totally different place..I am a totally different person. Will my kids be happy there, are we making the right decision? Heaven only knows... I pray I can find my place there...a way to contribute and be happy and to once again call it home. We will work like it depends on us and pray like it doesn't!
(This is in no way a normal post for me...sorry for the depth. Guess I just needed to get it off my chest.) ;`D
Monday, February 15, 2010
Dallas Snow...the sequel! Part 2
Dallas Snow 2010- The Sequel! Part 2
Kylie and Roger made Mr. Tude a friend. We will just call him Big Dude! Roger wanted to made Big Dude BIG to see how long he would last once the snow started to melt. I will keep you posted. on that.
The battle was on...but didn't last too long. Kylie had a hard time launching her snowballs far enough to be effective and actually hit Roger.
I have no idea why this one loaded on its side, but if you turn your head sideways you see how it is supposed to look. I am sure no one will laugh at you while you do it!
I spent way more time helping Kylie build her fort than she spent defending it!
And last but not least - here is my most recent scrapbook page. Would you believe I even did a paper scrapbook page also! Can you imagine that?!?!?!?!?!
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